counting bad things happened recently.

1st thing, fees problem... Don't understand how smart they are to finish off the granted money...

2nd thing, EW Juniors internal problem happened again... Why are there troublemakers inside the group?? If you think the current leader isn't good, then, who else is?? He just trying to make thing right and you don't even appreciate it and even plays politic among each others... Is it just to have fun so damn hard??

3rd thing, short of cash... Don't know how to write, just short of cash...

4th thing, a stupid sister which spend her money fast... Gets 1st month salary on 7th March, paid me back RM 50, which I borrowed from my friend just for her... On 12th March, sms me to ask money from her mom... What the fuck!?

5th thing, people just keeo picking bones on me... Not just recently, since many years ago, start from people first judge me that I look "ugly"... Ya, you look good, I know that, en, you damn right... So? If you are judging by the appearance, go make love with the TV and Magazine... Edison Chan would be a good choice...

6th thing, not going to reveal it...

7th thing, not yet... Let's hope it's not coming to me... Although I think it's impossible... Life is fills with sorrow and pain, you can only choose "to be", there isn't a choice "not to be" for you... No matter what is coming, 1st thing have to settle is my fees problems... In the mean time, work the shit out of me!

my ways of life~~~

Finish doing EW Juniors first poster, and just ate my supper which supposingly is my dinner~ well, it's still taste good even it's already cold~~

Actually I'm already exhausted and typing with only 1 hand while lying flat on the table, but thought of something I should write it down~~

I always wish that I can stay in a kiddy way and enjoy every moment of my life, but, others just keep giving nuisances on my behaviours... they just keep bringing it up which I think it's not even worthly to discuss about... I'm just being comfortable for what I am and I'm sure I'm not making it up or acting about it at all... My behaviours is true as it is, and not that I even want to gain any attention by doing so but, that just the way I am... If not, are you telling me to be a fake person and every single things I do have to behave like an adult man? Talk loud, talk hard, talk seriously?? That just ain't who I am... Hate it when anyone just keep on catching minor bugs of my behaviours... Isn't being natural to yourself is what it is suppose to be?? Why should I need to fake it out??

And people keep "worrying" that I will be gay or girlish, which I already get really irritated by them, then I spell it out here... "Even falling into the deepest fucking hell, not a chance!!" I don't give a damn what is happening around me, I only care those I care and the love I had been protecting all these years... You may think I seem like anti-social but many are hardly able for me to social with, in a friendly way... I do not wish for all the attention and flattering, can't just being friends just as simple as it suppose to be?? Just to fool around with each others and having fun?? Can't they just stop complaining and judging me as what they think is right???????? Why do they want to make things to be so freaking hell complicated??????????????????????????????????????

Just can't understand these people........................................... I'm a very bad temper person just in case you don't know me, then, is that what you want me to be?? I'm easily get hot-headed recently, as I said before, too many "EXTRA" matters been bothering me...... Hope I can be peaceful for the moment.................

This is bad~~~ real bad~~~

Shit~~~ I'm starting to get frustrated again... Why are there so many bloody shit obstacles bothering me?? I got tons of stuffs I need to take care of in my study and all the non-related things just keep bugging me and my precious time to going to waste.........

Damn it.... Seems like I'm still unmature, but I really can't control my anger.... Just hate doing things which others telling me I "MUST" do it.... What is the different from being forced??

Don't seem writing today help chilling me out.... Only things I could do now is to settle everythings! And I mean whatever things that I "BEING ORDERED" to do, fuck them all out~~~ And no more Mr. Nice Guy until end of this month.......

Writing blog~~

It's been awhile since I last wrote a blog. Anyway, it's a good sign cause I only write when I'm sad~ Most of it, ya~~ =3

Writing blog can really helps me release from any of my stress, it's just like speaking out the truth I'm thinking within my heart~~ And I never lied in my writing~~

Lying in my blog means I'm just lying to myself, then really there is no point to write if I am to fool myself~~

Yeap~~ There was something happened during my Fashion study~~ but, since it's already settled, which I think it is, so, I will just let it slip away this time~~ :P

Come into the present~~ You know what?? I cut my hair for the very first time in these 6 years~~ wow~~ And now only I realized that it's already past six years since I left secondary school~~ time flies, and have been through a lot in the past~~ thinking back the past, knowing how childish I was back then~~ Even till now, can't say I already mature~~ :P there are much more for me to see and learn~~

And you know why I cut my hair?? hehe~~ for the coming Fashion Show in April? ya~~ but just a excuse~~ My hair grown quite long, until I can't feel it's growing any longer and it gets curly and thick~~ so, cutting it this time and growing it long again~~ =3 refresh the feeling of growing long hair once again~~ cool~~ XD

haha~~ guess I still prefer long hair after all~~ no point bother whats other think about me~~ a book shouldn't be judged by the cover~~ I still hold on to this phrase until now~~ =3 It is my own romance after all, who cares what others think what they think is right, in their ways~~ but definitely it's not "my" way of thinking~~ haha~~ too bad~~ hardly anyone can convince me to change my heart so easily~~ XD