It's been awhile

How many years has it been since I came here~ those days, whenever time is harsh for me I will just spit it out here~ Not sure if anyone read it, but it works out every time I guess~

Life has changed over the years, not sure did I grown more mature, or probably not~~ just less looking forward to whichever happen~~ Now I devoted myself into the passion of cosplay~ A place, a culture which let me live without limit~~

Yes, I do know it won't be a living career~~ I willing to spend the time and money to make thing for myself and +1~~ But still, I never really been that alive before for the past 4 years~~ or maybe that's why I didn't write blog since then~~

But still, now I'm 29~ having a full time job with RM2,000+ income~ but seeing my way of life, actually the income is below average~~ and I have yet to own a car, nor a license~~

Spending is scary, saving is hard~~ Although I don't buy branded, wear only RM 10 singlet from FOS everyday~~ The saving still running low~~ with my cosplay passion going on, the spending also go on~~ Although I make things myself~~

Well, actually is because I make things myself that's why I spend more, cause my own level of expectation is quite ridiculous~~

So, something I found below is a so called SFI AFFILIATE CENTER~~ I think I gonna give it a try sharing it on this blog which is full of dust~~ THICK DUST~~

Below is the ad link I paste here myself~~ I already registered to try it out as a first timer~~

If you see it you can give it a try~~ It is quite a lot learning to do, but it seems it worth for a long term run~~

For those who willing to try or try harder than me, I hope the best for you~~ =3




 

walk into sora~~~

Guess I had forgot what I said before~~

"Love is never meant to suffer from it,
if so, there is not Love, it nothing more than an illusion~~"

and now, I will never forget it ever again~~
There won't be anymore negative feelings now on~~~~~
I believe one day I will find my perfect Lover~~~~ somewhere out there~~~~

so, I'm ready to fly on now~~~ and create my own storm~~~~ =D

爱不须长篇论文....

真正爱一个人，是不用写什么长篇浪漫论文... 只不过是个雕虫小技的花招...

最近也发觉，浪漫不过是爱情的小小饰品... 爱情最重要的，是从开始，直到最后......

到不了的三个字....

没资格说出的“三个字”......到了有资格时，已经是太迟了......

the end......

13 years, the feeling were so strong since the day I first met you... for no reason, I fell in love in the very first sight that change my heart till now... and now... this is the end...

I admit that it's all just me from all along from the very beginning... and since the last sms, I realize that, we can hardly be even as friend... I know it's stupid to hold on something that does not exist for so long, but, that just the way I am... and the way I will always be...

last word for you... be happy forever, my 1st love...

Lining up my thoughts recently~~

Thought no. 1 - People say I look like a girl and act like a girl~~~ I don't deny that, but that just the way I am~~~ =3 if I am to describe about it, I'm actually just being playful like a kid~~~ well, I am originally playful~~ xD maybe sometime over-childish~~ =3

I'm also a guy that like grow straight and long hair~~ well, it's inspired by some of the female idols I like~~ =3 or maybe, I just don't like the idea that, guy MUST have short hair or whatever it is~~ I had enough rules and regulation during secondary school, I don't need anymore of this unnecessary point of view since I'm out of the old boring school~~ i would say~~ "come on~~ learn from how the Japanese work~~~~"

It's because, the personality won't change just because I cut my hair~~~ it's the heart that's matter not the look~~~

Thought no. 2 - Just a phrase I thought of =3

Acting manly is not my way, being myself, is everyday~~
as man's pride rule, woman will suffer~~
Understanding woman, listening to their heart~~
as one day, my way of love will prevail~~

Just a blah blah blah out short poem I wrote~~~ xD because, I always think that if a man is too proud and stand strong to their pride, end up, they over see the feeling of a woman~~~

well, it's not really a definition of love, just that is what I think~~ only being one mind with my lover, then I ensure myself will love to the very end~~

Thought no. 3 - About my conclusion of the word "Romance"~~~ 1 sentense will do~~~

"I always feel and see the bright side of my way of love~~~ THE END"

That is how my Romance work~~ It was never complicated~~~ =3

Judging people~~

I realize people like to judge people to the fullest~~and of course, the term of "Judging" usually being used in negative terms~~ always blaming and talking bad on other from the back and even from the front~~~ (* anyhow, I did too~~ but, only on some extremely moron people~~)

Here the point, why does people like put 1 person fault, on the whole race?? This moron I didn't even wish I know him, always talking bad on other races~~~ The fact of full of shits coming from his mouth is already shown that he isn't any better than the 1 he blamed~~~ Never even look at himself before judging others~~ He himself is a total disgrace to the race he is, since he like to separate bloodline so much~~

I don't like it at all~~~ the one should be blamed or judged should only be the one responsible for it~~~ the world has nothing to do with 1 single soul being fouled~~~ This is the reason why there is war.......... the main reason of humanity's suffer............. because of this 1 hell of a fool being..........